Crafter and Observer

How do I reconcile and combine the crafter and observer within.

They currently feel at odds.

I want to explore and feel and experience, but I also want to create experiences for others!

Find a way to share my exploration.

This is such a thing.
So is an art show, video game, or anything else you create.

Maybe we should speak in plural to keep everything simple?

Do we want everything to be simple?

Is not the complex more beautiful (though when built on a simple foundation)?

We worry so much about doing things we should do but really don’t want to.

Just doing them is much easier.

Even not doing them and going to live in the wilderness is better than worrying about them all day.

Be done with stress.

Make our decision whether we will submit or be free.

What if greater freedom will come later of we submit for a while?

That’s the tricky situation we find ourselves in now.

We can’t help but look for a third option.

One where we can be free and make money doing it.

I’m reminded of the Ted talk “Go with your gut”. He seemed to have found a way to do what he wanted and make money.

Making clothes he would wear was his answer… It does sound fun…

I can’t help but feel like I would want to do different things all the time.

I can do that through characters and stories but that’s certainly not the same as doing it.

I’m taking in the singular again. Huh.

Doesn’t really matter I suppose.

Fight club told me I have to lose everything before Im free to do anything.

Everything? That’s so hard to give up…

What about creating AI?
That’s a major part of history coming and I can be a part of it if I’m not willing to take no for an answer.

I’m not really sure where to start though. Or if that would bore me to death. How do I make math fun?


If you’re still reading this that’s awesome 😀


It has made me feel better overall.

Even if I end up submitting, at least I expressed myself in a way.

The question I’m still trying to answer:
What could I do 12 hours a day and not get bored of?


Wow first thing

I’m surprised I’ve never used this as an outlet to write before.
Well we will see where this portal leads…

We use so many words without really knowing what they mean…

Beauty? Everyone is different.

The English language could use some serious upgrades.

How does one write that into existence? Essays? Stories? Anything?
An upgrade to the English language can come from anywhere.

Probably the internet.

Its so weird that some things cause me no anxiety and others so much…
Why is intense traffic scary at all?

One just does their best to be aware and safe.

I’m really curious how many people will read this.
If you’re reading I’d love a comment 😀

Words have great power.
Do not underestimate language.

It makes us human. Both saved and trapped by our own symbolic thought networks.

What a world.
What a life. I’m a dove.

I’m going to meditate. I’ll be back.